Sometimes as an artist the hardest thing to do is put yourself out there. Even after years of experience we often can have an embarrassing moment or piece of work. Learning from those moments and processing what happened is different for everybody. But it is important to understand that, that is what we signed up for. Persevering through those moments is what should be the driving factor of motivation. Knowing that you are apart of an extremely small population that is bold enough that the majority are too afraid to should be satisfying to an extent. Finding beauty in the hard moments of discouragement I would argue is the name of the game. That being said, just keep dreamin n scheamin baby!!!